Organized Chaos - Volume 6
Demons
by Jonah Marsh
This atypical hip-hop poetry reflects my struggle with and triumph from Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. It was severely debilitating for several years of my life.
Yo, it's like this: we all got mad demons to fight In the abyssal jet black of a starless night I was lost, beyond all recollection of hope or desire My mind was in turmoil, my brain a blazing pyre Burning away my creativity, happiness, and ambitions Yes, my own sentience was on a mad mission To utterly annihilate everything I held dear And render me a slave to anxiety and feat Lost in torpid agony, I prayed for the answer to appear But little did it avail me, I dreaded the end was near Almost ready to surrender to a vicious mental beast I nearly gave in, hoping to make the suffering cease My will was broken; I began to crumble like mortar And succumb to, in clinical terms, Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder Then, a miracle happened: I was pulled back into the light When something from within galvanized my will to fight Defeat was no longer an option - my resolve was absolute And I vowed to battle my unseen foe to its very root In a flash of revelation, I knew which course to take To free my mind and spirit, the demon I would break So I began a massive crackdown on intrusive thoughts That was like slowly untangling a myriad of intricate knots Straight up, the anxiety was a motha That tried to smotha me And drag me unda My mind was ripped asunda And my brain echoed with the thunda When suddenly, to my joyous wonda The mental pandemonium ceased Finally, I had done it The battle was over and I'd won it Dark clouds gave way to sun I was no longer on the run And could commence having fun At first, it seemed an impossible feat A daunting enemy I could never beat But with willpower, commitment, and perseverance I totally eliminated all obstructions and interference Thus allowing me to self-actualize That which is so hard to find: True happiness and peace of mind
So whether your demon is poverty, addiction, depression, or that jive-as turkey called OCD Just know this: you can liberate your mind and become truly free.
